the whole thing at once

Hi! This is me again, i think. I felt really sick today... it wasn't fun. Oh well. I think my blog is boring... no one ever comments on it. But OH WELL! life goes on. I realize that there aren't always things to write about. so today, I'll just ramble. Here are a few things you may not know about me: my favorite crayola crayon is called macaroni and cheese. normally when cute guys look at me I think they're starting at my zits in disgust. I LOVE to make things with clay. Its one of the things I really feel good about. I don't try new things because I'm afraid of failure I am scared of spiders crawling into my mouth when I sleep. I wish I was in the "in crowd" I wish I could be friends with everyone My middle name is Katherine I am a bowler, and thus, a nerd. Sometimes being a nerd is more fun than being cool. Red is the color of confidence. But I'm not very confident. hmmm. I think that it would be very cool to marry Matt Theissien. from Relient K. and so, here's a song for throught. "Be My Escape" I’ve given up on giving up slowly, I’m blending in so You won’t even know me apart from this whole world that shares my fate This one last bullet you mention is my one last shot at redemption because I know to live you must give your life away And I’ve been housing all this doubt and insecurity and I’ve been locked inside that house all the while You hold the key And I’ve been dying to get out and that might be the death of me And even though, there’s no way in knowing where to go, promise I’m going because I gotta get outta here I’m stuck inside this rut that I fell into by mistake I gotta get outta here And I’m begging You, I’m begging You, I’m begging You to be my escape. I’m giving up on doing this alone now Cause I’ve failed and I’m ready to be shown how He’s told me the way and I’m trying to get there And this life sentence that I’m serving I admit that I’m every bit deserving But the beauty of grace is that it makes life not fair Cause I’ve been housing all this doubt and insecurity andI’ve been locked inside that house all the while You hold the key And I’ve been dying to get out and that might be the death of me And even though, there’s no way in knowing where to go, promise I’m going because I gotta get outta here Cause I’m afraid that this complacency is something I can’t shake I gotta get outta here And I’m begging You, I’m begging You, I’m begging You to be my escape. I am a hostage to my own humanity Self detained and forced to live in this mess I’ve made And all I’m asking is for You to do what You can with me But I can’t ask You to give what You already gave Cause I’ve been housing all this doubt and insecurity and I’ve been locked inside that house all the while you hold the key And I’ve been dying to get out and that might be the death of me And even though, there’s no way in knowing where to go, promise I’m going because I’ve gotta get outta here I’m stuck inside this rut that I fell into by mistake I’ve gotta get outta here And I’m begging You, I’m begging You, I’m begging You to be my escape. I fought You for so longI should have let You in Oh how we regret those things we do And all I was trying to do was save my own skin But so were You So were You